My Secret Life...

Like other woman I have issues too.

As y'all know am an Ethnic Lesbian, am queer and am here. [Being a Minority is one of my issues... Uhg I should have Majored in Women Studies! Instead of Marketing and Networking!!!]

One of my issues that bothers me is my weight.

I worry all the time about how I look.

I've been on a diet since... Forever?

People doesn't see me as fat bitch. But whenever I looked at the mirror eww I just want to go puke. [It's making me sick to my stomach. Uhhgg.]

There are times that I love and hate myself. [Today? Hmm I love myself. All I ate was just Apples and Metamucil. Which I will purge later!]

I Am always in-denial of hunger.

To eat is an issue to me.

I just can't believe what's happening to me lately. I've been on a diet. Been working out on a regular basis... And yet I've gain freakin' 5 pounds!!! What the... I don't know where the hell it came from.

Is it just water??? Did I gain mass??? -- Now, I think am gonna die! Not just die... Am gonna die fat and alone. Waaaaaahhhhh...

Most of the people I know tell me that I ain't fat. Maybe their just saying that... Am not gonna be convinced... I will still feel fat... No matter what...

I am 5'5 and weighs 95 lbs. [I am overweight! I am suffering from Obesity!]