Pathetic

Have you ever want something or someone badly and just can't have it? And the more you want it... The more you can't have it? And still wants it??? PATHETIC!

I saw K last Friday she hasn't change a bit, after not seeing her for a month. I haven't changed too. [She still gorgeous and all that = and Me still not over her.] K and I didn't became an item okay. And I guess it'll never happen. *On a very hopeless tone.*

I have been raving K for almost a year now. [Just me and the people around me knew this. I hope. I know these people are already gettin' annoyed. LOL.] I think she has an idea that i like her. She just doesn't know that i really, really, really like her so much.--No, she doesn't know this much! Anyhow me and K have only one degree of separation. Yeah, one degree. Imagine that!

Me and some of my friends ended up at the sky deck for a smoke and a chat. I told them that K was at the back by herself. [Ohh perfect!] So they are double-triple-quadruple daring me if i could walk up and talk to her! Actually my girls are already having a bet. WUHATTT? A dollah? If i will do it or not. [Just how can i do it, if she's always on her damn cellie?] I swear every time i see her it seems that cellie was glued at her ears! Grrrrrrrr!!!!!

I didn't get the chance to even say "HI" to her. Knowing me, I am very pretentious person. I acted as if she's not at my back and did not noticed her at all. Even if am so feeling her. I still have my pride no! [Seeing her again that night... I could just die right there and then.] Wheee that is a bit exaggerated! LOL.

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Saturday afternoon i was on the phone with my friend John. [Blah... blahblahblahblahblah....]

Diwa: Did you see her last night?
John: Yeah! hot, hot hot!
Diwa: I know right!
John: Did you talk to her this time?
Diwa: Nope. You know me! I''ll stutter for sure! Isn't that too obvious? He he he
John: Too bad!
Diwa: I don't know if she noticed me. The things am doin'?
John: Umhh well maybe, Your all over the place! You are soooo trashed!
Diwa: Did you see her outfit thou? Did you see it thou? She's wearing all black from top to bottom! As if somebody had just died! He he he!!!
John: I like it. It's so 80's
Diwa: Umm no it's more of a Goth/Emo/Punk i say.
John: She's cute!
Diwa: Very cute! Awwww! I have an idea! Since she didn't noticed me... Ehem not noticing me at all. Maybe i should change my image? What do you think?
John: Ahahah like what are you gonna do?
Diwa: Maybe she likes Emo/Punk girls? Do you think that'll be a nice idea?
John: Ah, Just be yourself!
Diwa: I am being myself here OKAY!
John: Maybe your just not her type?!$#$^&&*)
Diwa: OUCH!!! That hurt okay! Yeah maybe, maybe not. That's why i will try to change my image. You know what am sayin'?
John: Like what are you gonna do this time biyatch?
Diwa: If Sanjaya has different hair styles every time... Maybe i'll have a different image every time i know am gonna see her!
John: Your crazy! He he he *Cracking up!!!* Your not Sanjaya okay, and he does that for the American people! And your gonna do it for just one person? Your out of your cotton pickin' mind! CRAZYYYYY!!!
Diwa: Whatever dude! If not her... Then i guess i'll just be a Lesbian Old Maid! So tatah! Au revoir! I'll talk to you later! Gotta go... Gotta go to Hot Topic and buy myself an emo/punk outfit!