I did really try...

I know, I don't really deserve her. I can do much better than that *bleecch*.

"I QUIT" 2 days ago. I know it's hard, we been together for quiet some time, but I cannot do anything anymore, it's like it's just not working anymore, but hey no regrets. I have tried and really gave my best - I could say... More than my best.

She is not the only person in the www (whole-wide-world). I just couldn't get myself why did I let someone do what she did to me (hindi naman ako panget, hindi ko naman sinasabing maganda ako. may itchura ako oo. masama nga lang nagk-ngak-ngak). No but seriously, no one and nobody deserves to be mistreated.

UPDATE:

Dear Joe,

Today, I got a valentines card from her through usps. Honestly, I miss her (love changes, but it doesn't have to end - o diba, hindi ako bitter!) Joe. Some things things have changed. I know that loving someone doesn't mean you have to be together, our ever dearest abusive relationship ended already - but, just because a relationship ended, didn't mean the love has ended too, I know it may really take while little by little, step by step. The little b*i*** has to really learn her lesson.

Joe I could not describe how happy I am right now, cause I can be me, no-more-no-less.

Two Weeks Ago:

She is so kind! She bought us Tiramisu, for our breakfast, I am not really into cakes, it's fattening no! She was upstairs studying. So, what I did was made her hot chocolate and gave her a piece of that Tiramisu (the reason why our ever dearest abusive relationship had put to an end). Before I took the cake upstairs... The cake looks very good and it really interests me to take a dip of my finger and have a taste of it and after that I all I know is that the cake that I was supposed to give her is already in half (I have a piece of this cake too, in the fridge but am just too YW$%E^&TYIOI lazy to get my own.) As I've said, I don't like sweets, and did not really expect that I'll like it...



To be continued...

I am out of it... (I took off the helmet, ALREADY!) Part 2

Continuation...

With her there are no dull moments! There is NO day that we didn't end it with a fight or an argument. Yeah it is true that you cannot teach a 5 year old kid to think like a 12 year old, well here's more even better you cannot teach an old dog new tricks *true that!*

With her I just listened, I cannot talk or even voice out my opinion *obviously that's why am blogging lol*. She's just too stubborn and what is worst is that she wanted me to be someone that I am not! When I talk to her she wants to hear the things only, the things that she wants to hear, and am not that kind of person *may sariling po akong isip, kahapon ko lang nalaman* :::wheeee::: I am free!!! Pwede na akong lumandi evah!

Of all the educated people I have met she is the most uneducated! Flang! Why? Kung mura-murahin ako nyan kala mo sa squalor nakatira ang *u**! Nobody has ever done that *&%^% to me... And yet I let her... Tsk-tsk-tsk, I have lost confidence sure which I know I could still replace it. There are things that I have lost and cannot be replaced and that's my dignity, self-esteem and my self-respect the most important of all. Oh well it is still never too late...

Just a few minutes ago, I have received a txt message from her BLAH-BLAH-KIAW-KIAW-KIAW wala akong pakialam *turns off phone* So I let Chuva read it first para suspence hehehe...

Me: O sinong kayang unang nilabasan ngayon? Bwahahaha...

Chuva: SYA! *wagiiiii kaaaa*

I don't need nobody's approval! If you don't like be then leave the hell off my face! (from now on ibabalik ko ang diwatang arogante). I am what I am. You can never change me (as the saying, you cannot teach an old dog new tricks) BOW... Tara Malen hanggang sa huling el bimbo to!

Tanunging nyo ako kung anong pinagawayan namin BILIS!

I am out of it... (I took off the helmet, ALREADY!)

I don't need no stress in my life. I have alot of things going on with me my full time/part time work, school and blogging the most stressful of them all lol... Actually she stresses me more than these things for real yo!

Today I had just ended my ever dearest abusive relationship with her, I just had enough... I am so sick and tired of it, it's like never-ending it's just a cycle (paulit-ulit, nakakasawa na at talagang nakakapagod). I am so damn proud of myself right now, cause I was the one who broke if off (it's not that am bragging about it, but usually she breaks it off often than me, maybe I was just really-really-really badly burned out that's why). Well it's been a pending break up actually! A long pending break up indeed!!! HA HA HA... I just have to do what I have to do (I just could not take it anymore). Sabi nga ni Chuva, kapag natatae ka saan ka nagpupunta? Kapag naiihi ka saan ka nagpupunta? Eh paano ba yan sukang-suka na ako??? No more effin foreplay for me...

Chuva: Ganyan naman kayo lagi ehh *kaloka!* Tignan natin kung sinong unang lalabasan!

Me: This is it! *todo na ito...*



To be continued...