Head under water

I could have known much better that what happened last night at some parking lot in Marlton is coming my way and I "could have" done something from preventing it a long time ago - it's just I am soooo stubborn.

I have never felt so humiliated in my entire life not until last night - I feel so less of a human that I have stoop down from someone's level and I know much better than that, that I should and could have just avoided it a very long time ago. A LONGGGGG TIMEEE AGOOO!

What I did last night was still in my mind and still very much bothers me, I am not so proud of myself right now, I really-really feel so horrible. I did not imagine that I am capable of doing such a thing - It's scary though...

I learned the hard way
That they all say
Things you want to hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and
Your twisted words,
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry

Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am



Thanks ever to my dearest friends like Malen, Agnes and Chuva who was there last night listening to my MMK, Pinoy Thiller and Regal Shocker stories. I hope you guys won't get tired of me - Ayan ibinalik na ni Chuva ang isang daang dolyar bwehehehe talo sya eh, ay kayo pala lol... Taasan nyo naman kasi ang bid please? LOL.

I had built a prison of my own self for quite sometime and I had become accustomed to that and had accepted the false premise that I was incarcerated for life. I have sacrifice my happiness for for someone's.

I admit that I had become a puppet and it sucks big time! Am glad that I am back on my feet again...

I would like to thank my sponsors - Arlington for my make up, Mighty Kid for my footwear and Eloy's for my outfit today, thanks and more power!