i imagine myself

As "over it."

Ever since I was a child, I really wanted to be in the Broadway, as far as I remember... I used to copy Annie! I looked up on Annie, really and sings...*Just thinkin' about Tomorrow. Clears away the cobwebs, And the sorrow 'Til there's none.*

According to kikipedia: Mind refers to the collective aspects of intellect and consciousness which are manifest in some combination of thought, perception, memory, emotion, will and imagination. Mind can be defined as the stream of consciousness. It includes all of the conscious processes of the human brain. The word is also sometimes used, in certain contexts, to include the working of the human sub-conscious or the conscious thoughts of animals. "Mind" is often used to refer especially to the thought processes of reason.

Theatre of the mind it is! Right now I am imagining myself as really over and done with it. (I hope so. I want to feel the excitement of knowing I did it, I have survived and life is good again.
) Our mind is a very power tool! Kaya kayo isaksak nyo sa mga kukute nyo, nothing lasts forever! I can't wait for sun to come out again, gorgeous women will appear from nowhere before my eyes! Charok!

I did my very best part for reals. I don't want to feel sick and sorry for myself anymore. There is no one going to help me, not even my room mate or my councilor. It's me, myself, I and Ambient!

I may be really confused at times... It's like am taking drugs, am drunk or whatever, but it's just me. Absent minded kasi ako lagi sobra. I often times don't pay attention to things and or maybe just don't care.

We had a fight that's been going on for like 2days now. She used very hurtful words on that txt message. I don't think I still have to have a closure. The txt message alone is enough. I was really hurt bothered with that message that she sent me last night. I could still not fathom those words coming out from her mouth, the one that I love. Thinking and knowing that she love or just used to love me... Whatever! - Masakit! Masakit sa dibdib, alisin o luwagan ko man ang bra ko... Masakit pa din sya.

Hindi ako panget o maganda. I say I have the looks, masama nga lang! Alam ko sa sarili ko, may makikita pa akong mas sa kanya. Pero bakit ako nagtya-tyaga ako dito? Masokista ba ako? Dalawang dahilan kung bakit ako nakakabit pa din sa relasyong ito... Kung ano man yon, I better keep to myself.


Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.