Arai na? ME, Insecure? PLEEZE!

I've had alot of bad luck in dating!, This was before I met the woman of my dreams "bruhangbyaning"...

Did you ever go out with somebody that you think you really like and then they just f*ck it up? They do something and you don't like them anymore, you know what am saying? Believe me it's the effin' worst feeling in the world!

I easily get turned off, specially if they kind of needy and clingy. I hate clingy people! Who wants them anyways?

I am very picky, I don't just date anybody who comes my way! I think first before going out with them. What am I thinking? I think of-- if they have the potential... To take my breath away. [Bad breath kasi ako paminsan he he he...] Ah basta pihikan ako... Kaya nga kinarma ako kay Kori eh!

RE-REWIND...

We [some girl that I used to date before.] were making-out and this was like our 4th date, and she said she is going to the bathroom and after she used the bathroom... She told me that she just peed blood... She said there something wrong with her kidney stones. My initial reaction was, I cannot make-out with you now... Cause you pee blood! So later! [Dedma ako talaga, wala akong pakialam.]

Present...

So when me and bruhangbyaning were just like getting to know each other we would talk on the phone for hours... I used to complain about that, Am not used to that... Hindi ako na train ng ganyan noon sa mga ex ko. Laging takbo ng conversation eh ganito o ano kamusta na? Sa bahay ka na? O sige nytnyt na! [Hindi ako sanay na nagtatagal sa telepono. Palibhasa kay Manat eh panay... WHAT? WHAT DID YOU SAY? WHO? AHH, REALLY? WHAT DID YOU SAY AGAIN? - Ganito ang takbo ng usapan namin lagi kaya naman kung abutin kami sa telepano eh ganun na lang LOL.

Eto pa... She hangup on me one time, [ang motto ko dito... Ikaw ang nambagsak, matuto kang tumawag ulit!] After 5 minutes nag ring ang phone ko... Eh di sya, tumatawag ulit! Aba biruin nyo nagagalit? Bakit daw ako hindi tumawag after nya ako babaan? Eh diba binabaan mo ako? Bakit ako dapat tumawag ulit? Diba ibig sabihin nun ayaw mo ako makausap? So... So long talong he he he... Iritang-irita sya! *Sa isip ko aba nakalimutan na naman nitong uminom ng adderall!*

And who says that you can't teach an old dog new tricks? [But I am no dog okay! At lalong hindi ako biik kaya hindi ako madaling hulihin!]

Yeah she's needy and wants all my attention all the time! But if am the one who needs and wants that same attention that she gets from me eh dedma! Sa madalit salita wala akong karapatang gawin sa kanya ang mga ginagawa nya sa akin! - Tao din ako no!!! Nakakainis diba? Parang hindi ako importante... Just like what she used to say - You not care me! If she doesn't get the attention she want from me. How about me? Grrrrrr!!! Arai wa! Aktuali, hindi ko sya sinanay ng ganito, pero may kasabihan ngang if you can't beat em' join em'! But often times, I get really pissed/frustrated and angry too . Eto ba talaga ang gusto ko? One thing I know I hate aggravation I want to live a stress free life!

She calls me sometimes 5 times in a row even i don't pick up cause I work no! It's a fucken disease, nahawaan nya ako ng gawaing ganyan. Yeah-huh! I do that to her too now! Nakakairita pala at nakakaadik mas lalo ka pang tatawag ng tatawag hanggat pick-up ang call mo lol. Leche na uulol na yata din ako eh. At minsan kapag hindi nya ni-pick-up ayan magdududa na ako... Kung ano-ano nang naiisip ko... Hindi lang ako needy ngayon insecure pa. Nakwento ko kasi sa isang kaibigan eh... Napaka-insecure mo naman - sabihan ba ako ng ganito? Siguro nga insecure ako... Ikaw na magkaroon ng ilong na parang tinumpok na kamatis o nasagasaan ng pison sa tingin mo hindi ka ma-i-insecure?

I used to tell her this - "I know sometimes I get you upset by the things that you want and expect me to do, that I don't do... Am sorry." Shempre ang approach eh ganito since she thinks different, iba sya day! Iba ang rational nya. Ewan ko kung kultura yan... Aktuali, parang ugali din ng pinay na gusto inaamo-amo yong ganun ba... Mas malala nga lang to palibhasa siguro bata pa. Hindi na ako sanay. Hindi ako sanay. Pero masasanay din ako, siguro... It needs time! Merkano na ugali ko no! LOL.